Sad Day!!

   I knew that this journey would be a difficult one and that I would lose certain foods that I love. But, it is difficult sometimes to watch other people eat the foods I use to love. Like last night we went to Subway for a seafood sensation that I had been craving. Well I knew I wouldn't be able to eat the bread and that the lettuce was iffy but I new I could eat the other veggies and crab. But, unfortunately I was wrong. I got sick after eating just 2 bites. So I sipped on some juice to settle my stomach. Then I figured I would give the sunchips a try. Again I got sick. I am unsure if I got sick cause I just shouldn't have eaten or if something got stuck. All I know is Subway is now on my list of do not eat foods. Just one more thing that I have to give up to get healthier. It is fine though. All for the greater good. My family can still enjoy it for me and I will just sip on some juice.

   Lately I have been looking at my diet. I know I have to have a TON of protein and keep my vitamins up. So  like I said in my last post I have changed my diet. But, now I am going to take it one step further. I am going to start cutting out even more and adding in more protein shakes and Greek yogurt. I just want to be as healthy as possible. I want to be around as long as possible and with the weight I knew I wouldn't be able to. I have small goals for this weight loss but I also have HUGE goals for this weight loss. I want to watch my daughter graduate, get married, have babies and I want to sit on our front porch with my husband when we are old and gray in rocking chairs and watch the sun set.

  I have a better out look on life now. I was always a happy person. But, after the chemo when my life was turned up side down it didn't look the same. I didn't look at it the same cause I didn't look the same. As I get smaller I see life in a better way. As I get healthier I know that I will meet all my goals. I know I may sound like all I care about is my looks. But, after 4 years I no longer have high cholestrol, or breathing problems and I actually feel good in my skin.

Well until next time..........